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03 May 2006 @ 08:25 pm
119: Wake Me Up Before You Go Go  
So I turn 18 tomorrow.
It's weird to think about that, since I guess I've felt 17/18 for years now and I keep trying to decide what makes one an adult exactly and whether or not that's anything I have control over. Is it deciding what rules you want to live by, the principles to guide your life? Is it something in your relations with others? Or is it something more, an awakening inside you in which you realize you are a Holden or Camus or something more, like all those coming of age novels by Chopin and more?
I guess parts of me wants something inside of me to change, to suddenly be more confident with myself, or comfortable in my skin, or suddenly aware that perhaps I do set myself up for failure and that it's ok to dispoint my parents once in a while. But then I think that maybe the realization that I have those fears, that I have those flaws and things to change about myself is what being an adult it. But then again, I could just be flattering myself and calling the whole "adult" thing quits.


Artist: Snow Patrol ft. Marth Wainright
Song Name:Set Fire to the Third Bar

Artist: Willy Mason
Song Name:Fear No Pain
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Current Mood: anticipation
Current Music: America's Next Top Model
somesquashsomesquash on May 3rd, 2006 05:46 pm (UTC)

Also I got the graduation party thing!
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moocowmisconstrue on May 3rd, 2006 05:55 pm (UTC)
Hi, I have been planning a super special voicemail phone call for your birthday for oh say A WEEK. What is with you suddenly popping on LJ instead, huh? I mean, there's Snow Patrol and new Willy Mason, so no qualms, but honestly. WAY TO RUIN A PERFECTLY GOOD SURPRISE IDEA. >:| that being said: YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE FOR NOT HAVING YOUR CELLPHONE, AND HAVING IT TURNED ON, ALL OF TOMORROW NOW.
MJyou_are_a_radio on May 3rd, 2006 06:17 pm (UTC)
I heartily agree with all points stated above. :)
stevenli on May 4th, 2006 03:51 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday Courtney!